:o OMG! NEWSFLASH!

i just got done bitching to myself about how other people are more than likely trying to play stupid about part of the bigger reason why i'm moving- i bitch about it enough on facebook and the fact that almost all of my family members still refuse to recognize what i'm going through and what i've been through just validates exactly why i don't see any damn reason to remain in this unopportunistic state where all REAL dreams die (well mine anyway). *IF* you REALLY cared about me as much as you try to make it seem like you do- YOU'D BE ENCOURAGING ME TO SUCCEED AT MY GOALS because this is MY life. NOT MY CARELESS, SELFISH MOM'S. NOT AMANDA'S NAIVE UNCARING SELF. NOT ANY OF THOSE OTHER RELATIVES WHO PRETEND TO CARE ABOUT ME- SO THEY WANNA KEEP ME AS SMALL AND GOALLESS AS POSSIBLE SO I DON'T DO THINGS THEY'RE MORE THAN CAPABLE OF DOING ALSO BUT PEOPLE MIGHT QUESTION WHY THEY DIDN'T END UP AS SUCCESSFUL AND/OR AS HAPPY AS I DID WHEN I FINALLY COMPLETE MY GOALS- MAKING THEM LOOK INADEQUATE WITH THEIR HUGE ASS EGOS. c'mon.. you all think you're so damn smart.. let ME dictate MY OWN FUTURE NOT AT YOUR CONVENIENCE. YOU THINK YOU'RE SO DAMN SMART. HOW THE HELL DID I GET THIS FAR AND WHY AM I NOT STILL IN MY DAMN WHEELCHAIR GOING TO THE COURAGE CENTER LIKE A DISABLED PAWN ANYMORE?! BECAUSE I REALIZE THAT YOU PEOPLE DO NOT HAVE MY BEST INTERESTS IN MIND AND ARE TRYING TO KEEP ME LITTLE, DEPENDANT, AND HANDICAPPED SO THAT YOU'LL ACTUALLY FEEL GOOD ABOUT YOURSELVES HAVING SOMEONE DEPEND ON YOU (WHEN YOU JUST HELP AT YOUR OWN CONVENIENCE). THAT'S WHY. THE FACT THAT NO ONE WANTS TO ADMIT THIS PISSES ME OFF AND MAKES ME NEVER WANT TO DEAL WITH ANY OF YOU AGAIN.